after all the submission and whatsoever i realised my mother threw away all my past articles that was published in the chinese newspapers.oh my god.like serious crap.then as i searched the website up and down for any trace i realised how insignificant i am in this world.a minion.i called nchs to request mdm png to write an appraisal for me but i just realised how weird things are to call up upon her.do i really deserve such true comments and remarks??damn life is just f-up at the moment.niways tmr is my bday!!hope i can see some light.:)i m going out with him to celebrate today.sometimes, i wish things just remain in ambiguity...sometimes i wish i could have stepped out to make a decision and be happy about it..